nd Auntie were preparing to take 
Granny on a picnic, I came down the stairs to find a package on the floor of the front 
entrance hall. It was a box about as long as my arm, wrapped in heavy paper and tied up 
with frayed twine. I knew it was none of my business; but since no one was around to see 
me, I went over to read the name and address in heavy characters on the face. It said: 

Sakamoto Chiyo 

c/o Nitta Kayoko 

Gion Tominaga-cho 

City of Kyoto, Kyoto Prefecture 

I was so astonished that I stood a long while with my hand over my mouth, and I'm sure my 
eyes were as big around as teacups. The return address, beneath a patch of stamps, was 
from Mr. Tanaka. I had no idea what could possibly be in the package, but seeing Mr. 
Tanaka's name there . . . you may find it absurd, but I honestly hoped perhaps he'd 
recognized his mistake in sending me to this terrible place, and had mailed me something to 
set me free from the okiya. I can't imagine any package that might free a little girl from 
slavery; I had trouble imagining it even then. But I truly believed in my heart that somehow 
when that package was opened, my life would be changed forever. 

Before I could figure out what to do next, Auntie came down the stairs and shooed me away 
from the box, even though it had my name on it. I would have liked to open it myself, but she 
called for a knife to cut the twine and then took her time unwrapping the coarse paper. 
Underneath was a layer of canvas sacking stitched up with heavy fishermen's thread. Sewn 
to the sacking by its corners was an envelope bearing my name. Auntie cut the envelope free 
and then tore away the sacking to reveal a dark wooden box. I began to get excited about 
what I might find inside, but when Auntie took off the lid, I felt myself all at once growing 
heavy. For there, nestled amid folds of white linen, lay the tiny mortuary tablets that had once 
stood before the altar in our tipsy house. Two of them, which I had never seen before, looked 
newer than the others and bore unfamiliar Buddhist names, written with characters I couldn't 
understand. I was afraid even to wonder why Mr. Tanaka had sent them. 

For the moment, Auntie left the box there on the floor, with the tablets lined up so neatly 
inside, and took the letter from the envelope to read it. I stood for what seemed a long while, 
full of my fears, and not daring even to think. Finally, Auntie sighed heavily and led me by the 


arm into the reception room. My hands were trembling in my lap as I knelt at the table, 
probably from the force of trying to keep all my terrible thoughts from rising to the surface of 
my mind. Perhaps it was really a hopeful sign that Mr. Tanaka had sent me the mortuary 
tablets. Wasn't it possible that my family would be moving to Kyoto, that we would buy a new 
altar together and set up the tablets before it? Or perhaps Satsu had asked that they be sent 
to me because she was on her way back. And then Auntie interrupted my thoughts. 

"Chiyo, I'm going to read you something from a man named Tanaka Ichiro," she said in a 
voice that was strangely heavy and slow. I don't think I breathed.at all while she spread the 
paper out on the table. 

Dear Chiyo: 

Two seasons have passed since you left Yoroido, and soon the trees will give birth to a new 
generation of blossoms. Flowers that grow where old ones have withered serve to remind us 
that death will one day come to us all. 

As one who was once an orphaned child himself, this humble person is sorry to have to 
inform you of the terrible burden you must bear. Six weeks after you left for your new life in 
Kyoto, the suffering of your honored mother came to its end, and only a few weeks afterward 
your honored father departed this world as well. This humble person is deeply sorry for your 
loss and hopes you will rest assured that the remains of both your honored parents are 
enshrined in the village cemetery. Services were conducted for them at the Hoko-ji Temple in 
Senzuru, and in addition the women in Yoroido have chanted sutras. This humble person 
feels confident that both your honored parents have found their places in paradise. 

The training of an apprentice geisha is an arduous path. However, this humble person is 
filled with admiration for those who are able to recast their suffering and become great 
artists. Some years ago while visiting Gion, it was my honor to view the spring dances and 
attend a party afterward at a teahouse, and the experience has left the deepest impression. It 
gives me some measure of satisfaction to know that a safe place in this world has been 
found for you, Chiyo, and that you will not be forced to suffer through years of uncertainty. 
This humble person has been alive long enough to see two generations of children grow up, 
and knows how rare it is for ordinary birds to give birth to a swan. The swan who goes on 
living in its parents' tree will die; this is why those who are beautiful and talented bear the 
burden of finding their own way in the world. 

Your sister, Satsu, came through Yoroido late this past fall, but ran away again at once with 
the son of Mr. Sugi. Mr. Sugi fervently hopes to see his beloved son again in this lifetime, 
and asks therefore that you please notify him immediately if you receive word from your 
sister. 

Most sincerely yours, Tanaka Ichiro 

Long before Auntie had finished reading this letter, the tears had begun to flow out of me just 
like water from a pot that boils over. For it would have been bad enough to learn that my 
mother had died, or that my father had died. But to learn in a single moment that both my 
mother and my father had died and left me, and that my sister too was lost to me forever ... 
at once my mind felt like a broken vase that would not stand. I was lost even within the room 
around me. 

You must think me very naive for having kept alive the hope for so many months that my 
mother might still be living. But really I had so few things to hope for, I suppose I would have 
clutched at anything. Auntie was very kind to me while I tried to find my bearings. Again and 


again she said to me, "Bear up, Chiyo, bear up. There's nothing more any of us can do in this 
world." 

When I was finally able to speak, I asked Auntie if she would set up the tablets someplace 
where I wouldn't see them, and pray on my behalf-for it would give me too much pain to do it. 
But she refused, and told me I should be ashamed even to consider turning my back on my 
own ancestors. She helped me set the tablets up on a shelf near the base of the stairwell, 
where I could pray before them every morning. "Never forget them, Chiyo-chan," she said. 
"They're all that's left of your childhood." 

Chapter nine 

Around the time of my sixty-fifth birthday, a friend sent me an article she'd found somewhere, 
called "The Twenty Greatest Geisha of Gion's Past." Or maybe it was the thirty greatest 
geisha, I don't remember. But there I was on the list with a little paragraph telling some things 
about me, including that I'd been born in Kyoto-which of course I wasn't. I can assure you I 
wasn't one of Gion's twenty greatest geisha either; some people have difficulty telling the 
difference between something great and something they've simply heard of. In any case, I 
would have been lucky to end up as nothing more than a bad geisha and an unhappy one, 
like so many other poor girls, if Mr. Tanaka had never written to tell me that my parents had 
died and that I would probably never see my sister again. 

I'm sure you'll recall my saying that the afternoon when I first met Mr. Tanaka was the very 
best afternoon of my life, and also the very worst. Probably I don't need to explain why it was 
the worst; but you may be wondering how I could possibly imagine that anything good ever 
came of it. It's true that up until this time in my life Mr. Tanaka had brought me nothing but 
suffering; but he also changed my horizons forever. We lead our lives like water flowing 
down a hill, going more or less 
in one direction until we splash into something that forces us to find a new course. If I'd never 
met Mr. Tanaka, my life would have been a simple stream flowing from our tipsy house to the 
ocean. Mr. Tanaka changed all that when he sent me out into the world. But being sent out 
into the world isn't necessarily the same as leaving your home behind you. I'd been in Gion 
more than six months by the time I received Mr. Tanaka's letter; and yet during that time, I'd 
never for a moment given up the belief that I would one day find a better life elsewhere, with 
at least part of the family I'd always known. I was living only half in Gion; the other half of me 
lived in my dreams of going home. This is why dreams can be such dangerous things: they 
smolder on like a fire does, and sometimes consume us completely. 

During the rest of the spring and all that summer following the letter, I felt like a child lost on a 
lake in the fog. The days spilled one after another into a muddle. I remember only snippets of 
things, aside from a constant feeling of misery and fear. One cold evening after winter had 
come, I sat a long while in the maids' room watching snow falling silently into the okiya's little 
courtyard. I imagined my father coughing at the lonely table in his lonely house, and my 
mother so frail upon her futon that her body scarcely sank into the bedding. I stumbled out 
into the courtyard to try to flee my misery, but of course we can never flee the misery that is 
within us. 

Then in early spring, a full year after the terrible news about my family, something happened. 
It was the following April, when the cherry trees were in blossom once again; it may even 
have been a year to the day since Mr. Tanaka's letter. I was almost twelve